curveball.

i had an awakening last week. one of those rare instances in which the "universe" serves up a massive curveball and bam. disillusionment. followed by devastation. followed by relief. relief, because if everything i believe about my life at any given moment was always 100% true, i'd eventually run out of things to investigate. i'd paint myself right into a corner and then what? but honestly, almost everything i've ever believed to be 100% true has turned out to be 100% false. so its a relief to find out how wrong i am yet again; it confirms that no matter how many ways i spin it, i just don't Know.

we could all use a good curveball from time to time.